honour

December 6, 2023
A portrait of the author, in front of green foliage

Andrew McMillan was born in Barnsley in 1988. His debut collection of poetry, physical, was the only poetry book to ever win the Guardian First Book...

An image of evergreen trees, and two faces

Eliot White-Hill, Kwulasultun (Snuneymuxw First Nation), digital design 

how many of us had each other

in our pockets   without telling?

 

the photographs   and videos

inviolable   locked tight inside

 

archives of deep respect      they say

a roman citizen could stroll

 

the world protected only by

civis romanus sum

 

community as armour

just like it was those nights

 

when we gave ourselves away

waited to see what returned   to stoke

 

fires that scared the lonely hare back into the forests

 

of our shame   and may it

always be that way

 

our bodies silently walking

with each other   every day

 

keeping each other's deepest wants

inside our jackets      I held so many

 

of you close   despite not meeting

thank you for your beauty   for trusting

 

your body into your own hands

and then to mine   your secret's safe

 

                                                            with me

A portrait of the author, in front of green foliage

Andrew McMillan was born in Barnsley in 1988. His debut collection of poetry, physical, was the only poetry book to ever win the Guardian First Book Award; it was also awarded a Somerset Maugham award, an Eric Gregory Award, the Aldeburgh First Collection Prize and in 2019 was voted as one of the Top 25 Poetry Books of the Past 25 Years by the Booksellers Association. His second collection, playtime, won the inaugural Polari Prize. A third collection, pandemonium, was published in 2021 and in 2022 he co-edited the acclaimed anthology 100 Queer Poems, which was shortlisted in the British Book Awards. He is professor of contemporary writing at Manchester Metropolitan University and a fellow of the Royal Society of Literature.